Part 4: Post Trip Musings

Dear diary,

I've just returned from my trip to Washington D.C. It was a very productive and met most of my expectations. I got to learn about how our government functions, meet some of our leaders like Senator Barbara Boxer and Congressman Doug Orse and most importantly got to spend plenty of time with Rory Gilmore. I was very glad to spend much of the trip with my classmate and vice president. We got visit most of the landmark together and even went to a party, which turned out much better than i expected, mainly because we didn't get made fun of, hardly any drunken asshole hit on us and no one threw up on us. However i feel that my time with Rory in Washington was also a big disappointment. I really wanted to use the trip to get closer to her, but instead things didn't turn out like i wanted it to. We got all caught up with the activities by going to most of the function, which were mostly pretty boring. Rory for the most part kept her distance and seemed distracted much of the time. I guess she really missed Dean. However i do suspect that Jess could've been on her mind. I couldn't help but notice the chemistry between them when i had dinner with them. I have a feeling that something could happen between those two soon. Just thinking about Dean and Jess with Rory makes me frustrated even more, because i feel like i'm fighting a losing battle against those guys over her. Personally i don't have anything against them. Dean is your typical nice, devoted boyfriend that most mothers would love, while Jess is the intriguing booksmart rebel. If given the chance i would go out on a date with Jess in a heartbeat, mainly because he's very intelligent, handsome in that James Dean way and would definitely piss off my mom. However just because i don't have anything against them doesn't mean i wouldn't run over them in a heartbeat to get with Rory. When i saw Rory with Dean when they had their fight that night, i could sense a part of being bored with him. Sure having a nice devoted boyfriend like Dean is good for some things like pleasing your mother, but after a while they probably get pretty boring to be around. Plus i have to say that Dean has the personality of a fucking rock and is too much of the territorial jealous type. I don't see how Rory could put up with him everyday. Anyway nothing went as planned in Washington. I really wanted to go on some private getaway with Rory, but the closest we came to one was a trip to some indie record store. Throughout the trip i couldn't help but marvel at how beautiful Rory is by mostly staring at her whenever we were in our room. I always thought she had some natural beauty about her. However i begin to notice some changes. When she first came to Chilton, Rory had that cute babyface look about her. However lately i've noticed that her look is starting to evolve into a more sultry yet mature beauty much like her mom. Now i see why Dean, Jess and Tristan would try to kill each other just to be with her. During the last few nights i begin to have some dreams about me and Rory. In it we're out on some picnic in the park reading and talking about stuff. Then when sunset arrives, i take Rory's book from her and tell her my feelings for her. I would tell her how she changed me and meant the world to me. Then for a brief moment i would look deeply into her beautiful blue eyes and lean forward for a passionate kiss. We didn't care who was watching us. Nothing else mattered except each other. Just as i'm about to unbutton her shirt, i wake up suddenly, touching myself. I usually don't have those type of dreams unless i really felt like it. After the trip ended, we went to the airport, said goodbye and parted ways. I was tempted to give Rory a nice brief kiss, but i was very conscious about who was watching us and decided not to do it. Besides it would be much better in private. Anyway i flew back home and met up with my nanny Francisca. After arriving home, i begin to work on my application to Harvard and do some charity work. A week before school started, my mom dragged me to one of those mindless Labor Day parties where she mingled and gossiped with her friends. Of course i ran into Madeline and Louise and as usual they talked about their summer. Madeline had some fling with a football player from Lehigh, while Louise once again talked about how she fucked at least a couple of guys during the summer. Of course i didn't talk much about my trip to Washington. Like Madeline and Louise would ever give a shit about it unless i fucked some guy or went on some drunken binge where i turned into one of those braindead bimbos on those Girls Gone Wild videos. Anyway during the boring party, i sat in the den and begin to think about the upcoming school year. This year was going to be my senior year and i wanted to leave my mark at Chilton like being one of the best class president ever and graduating Valedictorian, but more importantly i wanted to be more closer with Rory. I feel that our relationship has come a long way since when we first met a couple of years and i wanted to keep things on an upward swing. Maybe being in the student government will help things out. Plus i'm strongly thinking about taking some more trips to that small town that she lives in.

The end.